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Oasis - Ch. 12/??

Title: Oasis - Ch. 12/??
Author: [info]shirleyann66
Character: Major Edward Beck
Prompt: Table 1, #25 - Forgive
Fandom: Jericho
Rating: PG
Warnings : Spoilers for pretty much everything that's ever happened in the series may lie within.
Word count: 348
Summary: And now what? (continued)
Disclaimer/Claimer: I do not own nor am I affiliated with Jericho or CBS or any of the other PTB in relation to the show (although if anybody has a Major Beck just kickin' around with nothing to do...send him my way!). No infringement is intended. I'm just taking the characters out to play, and will do my best to show them a very, VERY good time. ;)

A/N1: Words in red are Beck's thoughts as he's writing; not what was actually sent.

A/N2: I have no military knowledge or background; everything I know I've learned through Wikipedia and various TV shows and movies (and we know how accurate all of those things are!) So, apologies in advance for incorrect terminology, or protocol.
 
A/N3:  PHEW!  What can I say?  It was a busy day for him!  There will now be a brief hiatus as I type things up and start to work on the next batch of letters.  :D

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July 4, 2007

Jake –

As you know, I couldn't be here to meet you face-to-face. To apologize to you in person. I don't expect you to forgive me, of course, but I do want to apologize.

I'm sorry, Jake. I'm sorry for all of it. For what I did to you, to Jericho, to your friends, to your mother. I could try to explain it all, excuse it all – but I'm sure you don't want to hear it, and you sure as hell don't want to read it.

I'm glad you made it back in one piece; I'm glad that I'm able to leave two hundred troops behind, to help you guys out. It's not enough – but it's all I can do right now.

It's probably best that I'm leaving Jericho although I do wish I could stay to help you fight the coming war. But I go to serve another master – to do my job, even if it is just being "middle management" in the effort to reclaim this country and rebuild it. You were right about that, Jake, just like you were right about everything else.

I don't know if we'll ever meet again, or under what circumstances. I'll have some contact – for as long as it lasts – with Jericho through Captain Clark. If you need anything – get word to me through him, and I'll see what I can do.

I probably don't need to ask, but please keep an extra close eye on Heather. She speaks truth to power, and that can be dangerous. I don't need to tell you that she's a good person, and a loyal friend. You're lucky to have her in your corner (and half in love with you...maybe three-quarters. You're a lucky man, Jake, to win the heart of a woman like her.)

I wish you good luck – and I hope to meet you again someday. You deserve your chance to get your pound of flesh from me. I owe you that much.

For what it's worth, coming from me, you're a good man, Jake. Jericho – and this country – are lucky to have you.

Beck

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phyllis629
Sep. 14th, 2009 03:55 pm (UTC)
Oasis Chapter 7
Shirleyann66,

I'll give more detailed comments later, but I wanted to give a quick response. These are very well done. Very realistic insight into Beck.

I'm sorry you had formatting problems, but I'm glad that I'm not the only one that's been frustrated in trying to post to Live Journal. It always takes me multiple attempts and reformatting!!
shirleyann66
Sep. 15th, 2009 01:42 pm (UTC)
Re: Oasis Chapter 7
Thanks, Phyllis. :)

I'm sorry you had formatting problems, but I'm glad that I'm not the only one that's been frustrated in trying to post to Live Journal. It always takes me multiple attempts and reformatting!!

This was one of the more frustrating times - it moved text around (!), randomly made paragraphs, and let's not even discuss the spacing issues!! *hangs head and sighs*. I'll need to take some time and go back and pretty up the other entries, too.

It's nice to know I'm not alone... :D
onceiwasaturtle
Sep. 17th, 2009 05:50 am (UTC)
Very nice as always. This one seems to give a glimpse into his soul. ;-)
shirleyann66
Sep. 19th, 2009 03:07 pm (UTC)
*blush* Aw, thanks. :) I'm glad you liked it!!
tanaquific
Sep. 19th, 2009 12:24 pm (UTC)
Wow, Beck had a busy day letter-wise! *g*

I really do like the way you write Beck and the "voice" you give him. I particularly enjoyed the letter to Heather: there's so much that can be read between the lines in there that he's not even acknowledging to himself in his thoughts.

Thanks for sharing these!

Are you going to create a masterlist in chronological order at some point?
shirleyann66
Sep. 19th, 2009 03:15 pm (UTC)
Wow, Beck had a busy day letter-wise! *g*

Hee! He sure did! :D

I really do like the way you write Beck and the "voice" you give him.

Aw, thanks! I suspect I'm far too focused on this character for it to be healthy, but I'm having fun. :)

I particularly enjoyed the letter to Heather: there's so much that can be read between the lines in there that he's not even acknowledging to himself in his thoughts

The letter to Heather is my favourite in this batch too (although I'm pretty fond of the one to Jake, as well). And, oh, there's so much going on in his head that he's not acknowledging even to himself... *evil laughter*

Are you going to create a masterlist in chronological order at some point?

I hadn't really thought of posting it to LJ (because I do have a masterlist on my laptop)...but that's a very good idea. I'm thinking I should also put a link on the side menu to the first letter so people don't have to struggle to find it (especially when we get further into the story). *ponders**ponders*

Thanks for commenting. I'm glad you like what's been posted so far. :)
phyllis629
Sep. 21st, 2009 05:29 pm (UTC)
Here are my detailed comments on Chapters 8 - 12.

Chapter 8

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Here are my detailed comments on Chapters 8 - 12.

Chapter 8

<i I wasn't executed. Obviously. Luckily. Amazingly. I'd accepted the fact that I was likely going to die in the not too distant future – and not in battle, like I had recently assumed, but in front of a firing squad, convicted of treason. To be given a reprieve – a second chance at life – there's still a part of me that's stunned, and wondering what the hell just happened./i>

Wow, he really had resigned himself to his fate. As I think you mentioned in one of your comments in Redemption, it shows his courage in staying to be judged by his commanders, rather than running for this hills!

<i I, once again, have to do my duty and follow orders. I hope this government is legitimate and that we're not allies with it simply because it is also against the ASA. "The enemy of my enemy is my friend" - isn't that the old adage? I hope that's not the reasoning in this case - I don't think I can take following the orders of a corrupt government a second time. Hell, I don't know if I can follow any orders again without second thoughts. /i>

This is great insight into Beck’s character. It would be so easy to just fall into his new command and blindly follow their orders. Instead, he is going in with his eyes open. You just know that he’ll be watching their actions to ensure that they really are the “good guys”. It shows that he really learned from his experience with the ASA.

Chapter 9

<i I suggest you work with Heather in assessing needs and the state of your supplies, as well as options for creating or acquiring what's required. She's more than capable of assisting you, and you'll be in good hands with her. /i>

It’s funny how he mentions Heather in almost every letter. Not only does it show his immense respect for her, but also reflects how much he cares about her, even if he hasn’t fully realized it himself.

Chapter 10

Reading this one made me sad as he said good-bye to her. I’m hoping you will have them meet up again!!

<i You made my time in Jericho – well, not enjoyable; we were too much at cross-purposes for that, weren't we? But you did make it bearable. /i>

I guess this is as far as he can go in admitting his feelings at this point!

Chapter 11

<i If we both make it through this war, or if we meet again at some point during it, I hope I'll have the opportunity to shake your hand, buy you a drink, and have you share your story with me. I hope I'll have the opportunity to thank you in person. /i>

It’s good to see him realize how much of a debt he owes Hawkins. Not just for the information on the laptop, but for getting him to see the truth since the beginning. I also agree with your comment that the Hawkins/Beck relationship is hard to get a handle on, because it is based on a series of lies. I think Beck is now beginning to appreciate Hawkins’ motivation for those lies.

Chapter 12

This one, and the one to Heather, are my favorites.

<i I probably don't need to ask, but please keep an extra close eye on Heather. She speaks truth to power, and that can be dangerous. I don't need to tell you that she's a good person, and a loyal friend. You're lucky to have her in your corner (and half in love with you...maybe three-quarters. You're a lucky man, Jake, to win the heart of a woman like her.) /i>

Do I detect a note of jealously in Beck’s thoughts? Hope so!!

<i I wish you good luck – and I hope to meet you again someday. You deserve your chance to get your pound of flesh from me. I owe you that much. For what it's worth, coming from me, you're a good man, Jake. Jericho – and this country – are lucky to have you. /i>

This was very well written. It acknowledges that a written apology isn’t enough. I also like the compliment he gives Jake. I always thought that his verbal manipulation of Jake in Sedition (basically calling him a failure) would probably have done greater long term damage than any of the physical abuse – especially given Jake’s perception of himself as a screw up. This comes across as a sincere attempt to put things right.


And I love the idea of your posting a master list!

(And thanks again for telling me how to do the italics - hopefully they come out right!)


phyllis629
Sep. 21st, 2009 05:31 pm (UTC)
I see the italics didn't work. Oh well, hopefully it is still legible.

Someday, I'll figure out Live Journal formatting!!
shirleyann66
Sep. 21st, 2009 06:18 pm (UTC)
I see the italics didn't work. Oh well, hopefully it is still legible.

Just a quick note to say: but I know why they didn't. :)

I'm going to try this, and hope it works (it's tough to illustrate HTML codes because the system will automatically format.

You need to do the coding like this

<#> TEXT and then the /# would also be in both < > (it won't allow me to illustrate...grrrr...).

Hope that helps!! And sorry for not being able to explain it properly!! :(

shirleyann66
Sep. 21st, 2009 06:23 pm (UTC)
I suppose the easiest way of saying it would have been "you need to close the brackets around the "i" and the "/i"...

*hangs head* Sorry - it's been a long day and it's only noon...
phyllis629
Sep. 21st, 2009 06:53 pm (UTC)
Thanks for your help.

I did close the brackets, although it doesn't show that way. It could be something funky with my computer!
shirleyann66
Sep. 23rd, 2009 11:23 pm (UTC)
Aw, thanks for your lovely comments. :)

Wow, he really had resigned himself to his fate. As I think you mentioned in one of your comments in Redemption, it shows his courage in staying to be judged by his commanders, rather than running for this hills!

I don't know about you, but I was literally yelling "what!? Are you NUTS?!" at the screen when he was telling Eric and the others about his decision and how his commanders were determining what to do about him. :D

Besides showing his courage, I (choose to) think it also shows his commitment to "doing the right thing". If he had decided to run, he wouldn't have been able to "pardon" everybody without raising red flags, and whoever took over after him may not have been so merciful... *shakes head*. Yep, he's nuts.

It’s funny how he mentions Heather in almost every letter. Not only does it show his immense respect for her, but also reflects how much he cares about her, even if he hasn’t fully realized it himself.

*blinks innocently*

Reading this one made me sad as he said good-bye to her. I’m hoping you will have them meet up again!!

*gives best innocent look*

Do I detect a note of jealously in Beck’s thoughts? Hope so!!

*gives extra-innocent look*

This was very well written. It acknowledges that a written apology isn’t enough. I also like the compliment he gives Jake. I always thought that his verbal manipulation of Jake in Sedition (basically calling him a failure) would probably have done greater long term damage than any of the physical abuse – especially given Jake’s perception of himself as a screw up. This comes across as a sincere attempt to put things right.

Thank you! This one is my second favourite out of these five, and I'm with you - the verbal/emotional manipulation was probably the worst thing Beck did. Considering that Beck knew exactly which buttons to push makes me truly believe that Beck is very, VERY good at what he does.

Of course, Jake got a few hits in, too, especially with that "middle management" line.

And I love the idea of your posting a master list!

It is an awesome idea (thanks Tanaquific!)...I should probably get it started now and update as I go, otherwise, I'll be stuck doing them all at the end...like typing up the first drafts... :(

Thanks for commenting, and I'm glad you liked them! :)


phyllis629
Sep. 24th, 2009 12:19 am (UTC)
If he had decided to run, he wouldn't have been able to "pardon" everybody without raising red flags, and whoever took over after him may not have been so merciful... *shakes head*. Yep, he's nuts.

Actually, that’s always one thing that bugged me about the episode. If his commanders had decided against him, wouldn’t they just have re-arrested the Rangers? Or was there something about the pardon that couldn’t be reversed?

That bothered me even more with Heather, as she sat with him while they determined his fate. If any of his commanders had known she took the page (which I’ve got to believe they did), she would have been in grave danger if they had decided against him. They probably would have arrested her for treason and shipped her off to Cheyenne along with Beck. (Hmmm….another plot bunny….with perhaps an escape along the way??!!)

I'm with you - the verbal/emotional manipulation was probably the worst thing Beck did. Considering that Beck knew exactly which buttons to push makes me truly believe that Beck is very, VERY good at what he does.

Agreed. Beck knows how his verbal manipulation hurt Jake. I’m trying to use that as part of the motivation for Beck’s actions in Redemption. He wants to help Jake mature and become more confident – not just because he likes and respects him – but also because he feels an obligation to build him back up again – almost in a big brotherly type of way.

Now, I’m spending too much time writing and commenting on Heck fiction, instead of figuring out the next step in my career. What can I say – this is a lot more fun! I may even be able to post the next Chapter before the end of the weekend!

shirleyann66
Sep. 26th, 2009 02:39 pm (UTC)
Actually, that’s always one thing that bugged me about the episode. If his commanders had decided against him, wouldn’t they just have re-arrested the Rangers? Or was there something about the pardon that couldn’t be reversed?

Oh, good - nice to know I wasn't the only one who thought that! I just figured there was something about military protocol that I didn't know (like...everything), and I also figured that his pardon would end the insurgency, and so there would be no need to re-arrest the Rangers.

That bothered me even more with Heather, as she sat with him while they determined his fate.

Word.

They probably would have arrested her for treason and shipped her off to Cheyenne along with Beck. (Hmmm….another plot bunny….with perhaps an escape along the way??!!)

True. And drat! Yes, there's another fluffy plot bunny, twitching its nose - I hope you write it soon! ;D

Now, I’m spending too much time writing and commenting on Heck fiction, instead of figuring out the next step in my career. What can I say – this is a lot more fun!

I hear ya - I'm so glad you're having fun in this sandbox (because that will hopefully mean more stories from you *cough*. No pressure, of course. ;)

I may even be able to post the next Chapter before the end of the weekend!

YAY!! After the week I've had, this is great news!! Now, if only NativeFloridian can post another chapter or two (and if Inanna and Rubberbisquit and Janiekins and Ditte could also come out to play... *bats eyelashes* that would help to make up for my crappy week.)
phyllis629
Sep. 26th, 2009 06:48 pm (UTC)
Sorry you've had such a rough week. If it makes you feel any better, the next chapter of Redemption is posted.

I'd love everyone else to come out and play as well!!
phyllis629
Sep. 27th, 2009 10:36 pm (UTC)

I felt so bad for your crappy week, that I've posted yet another chapter - my second one this weekend.

Hope that makes you feel a bit bett!er
shirleyann66
Sep. 28th, 2009 01:45 pm (UTC)
Awwww... thanks!! You're so sweet. And yes, it did make me feel much, much better. :)

I've read both chapters, but won't have time to comment until sometime later today.
phyllis629
Oct. 2nd, 2009 12:23 am (UTC)
Haven't "seen" you in awhile. Hope this week is going better for you.

I'm not bugging you for comments on my recent Chapters. (Although I do find them to provide me with great motivation in finishing future chapters. See, no pressure!) Similarly, I'm not pressuring you for new chapters of Oasis. She coughs innocently

Seriously, I know real life has this nasty habit of intruding on more fun activities. But, if you have a chance, check out the below link (you may have to cut and paste it; i'm having trouble getting it to work as link in Live Journal).

It talks about the 3rd comic book and specifically mentions Beck and Heather!

http://www.forbidden-planet.co.uk/acata ... ar__3.html
phyllis629
Oct. 2nd, 2009 12:27 am (UTC)
Since I tried that link and it's not working, I took the liberty of cutting and pasting the blurb below

"Jake and Hawkins arrive at Loomer Ridge Prison in Colorado. Their goal: break into the massively fortified, off-sight facility and retrieve terrorist John Smith. This unreachable goal becomes slightly more attainable with the aid of Chavez, who knows the ideal way to infiltrate the Allies States' defenses. Meanwhile in Jericho, ASA intelligence officers target Beck and Heather in their attempt to quell the growing resistance."

Hopefully they'll treat "our" characters well!
shirleyann66
Oct. 2nd, 2009 01:08 am (UTC)
...EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

OMG - I'm as excited about these comics as if they were a movie or miniseries on TV.

Hopefully they'll treat "our" characters well!

Ooooooohhhhh, yes!!! I want relationship movement, but not too much - because you still need something for the movie/mini-series. :D

Thanks for the info - *bounces up and down with anticipation*
shirleyann66
Oct. 2nd, 2009 01:05 am (UTC)
Haven't "seen" you in awhile. Hope this week is going better for you.

*hangs head* I know, and I feel so bad about it. This week is going better, but it's still really, really intense and I've been pretty much brain dead by the end of every day. So I've been playing games on Facebook because that doesn't really require much thought. :D (And it's fun, too.)

I'm not bugging you for comments on my recent Chapters.

I know!! And I was so happy when I read them on the weekend (really, really happy). I really appreciated having them this weekend cause they were awesome, and yes, I'm going to give you lots of love...soon... *gives best puppy dog eyes begging for forgiveness*

Similarly, I'm not pressuring you for new chapters of Oasis. She coughs innocently

Hee!! Well, the next letter is almost ready to post. I've been typing up a storm, trying to get everything into one document (not to mention electronic) so I can start to consolidate the plot(s) and timeline.

Plus, I've been working on a little something extra that I should be able to post in about a week (if my brain will cooperate in the evenings...).

It talks about the 3rd comic book and specifically mentions Beck and Heather!

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...
falinemalfoy
Dec. 10th, 2009 07:00 am (UTC)
Heh, I wondered why no one commented on the previous four letters. Now I see why :)

I think I like Jake's second best; Heather's first.

Beck really did try to give Jake a fair shake when he could and kinda took it easy on him. He tortured him all right but it could have been so much worse.

The best part is that it's Beck that still feels like shit about the situation even if it was out of his control (Like Goetz and Bonnie).

For what it's worth, coming from me, you're a good man, Jake. Jericho – and this country – are lucky to have you.

A rare, but fitting compliment I think.
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