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Oasis - Ch. 6/??


Title:   Oasis - Ch. 6/??
Author:  [info]shirleyann66
Character:   Major Edward Beck
Prompt:   Table 7, #72 - Broken
Fandom:   Jericho
Rating:   R - mucho bad language.  Enraged!Beck lies within...
Warnings :   Major, major spoilage within for basically the last half of season 2.
Word count:  603
Summary:  Twelve hours.  He was gone for twelve.  fucking.  hours.
Disclaimer/Claimer:   I do not own nor am I affiliated with Jericho or CBS or any of the other PTB in relation to the show. No infringement is intended. I'm just taking the characters out to play, and will do my best to show them a very, VERY good time. ;)

A/N1:  Words in red are Beck's thoughts as he's writing; not what was actually sent.  ;)

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June 29, 2007


 

Jeff -


 

Four months.


 

Four months of trying to understand – to work with - this fucking town – and for what?


 

I'll be honest – I didn't mind the occasional act of defiance and resistance. If anybody deserves a little bit of trouble it's Ravenwood and Goetz. I was willing to look the other way when it was a bit of smuggling, a bit of raiding by Dale and his crew, a bit of nose-thumbing at J&R and Ravenwood.


 

But this? This, I can't overlook.


 

No revenge killings, I told him. I told him I'd deal with it when I got back from New Bern.


 

I was gone for twelve hours.


 

Twelve. Fucking. Hours.


 

And Goetz ends up shot through the head and hanging in a tree.


 

They have no idea how lucky they are I didn't burn this fucking town down around their fucking ears the minute I got back. That I didn't just bomb the shit out of the whole damn bunch of them.


 

I thought about it. God, how I thought about it. One word – one fucking word – and I'll do it, too. Fuck my mission – fuck the people – (fuck Heather and her innocent eyes) – fuck the ASA and this whole new world. I may still do it – I'm sick of being treated like an idiot, of being manipulated, of being disobeyed. I'm sick of the lies and the secrets. (I'm sick of the uncertainty and the doubt).


 

We found Russell almost immediately. Jake – the noble hero that he is – surrendered today, pretty much the moment we got back to Jericho. The sacrificial lamb – taking the blame, taking the fall in front of the whole damn town. I could almost see him glowing with his righteousness and self-sacrifice. Bastard. He's nothing if not a master at the grand gesture, the dramatic moment. We'll see how dramatic he is when I get through with him.


 

Oh, I already have the story - I'd broken Russell in a matter of hours. Jake isn't going to be that easy – but I need Stanley Richmond. J&R is looking for blood – Ravenwood is looking for blood. Even if they fired Goetz, and even if the asshole deserved what he got (and more), they can't let this blatant flaunting of their authority go unchallenged.


 

Stupid – stupid – STUPID. If they had just claimed he was killed during the battle to capture him - if they had just hidden the fucking body – but no. They had to use it to give the finger to the ASA, to J&R, to Ravenwood – to me – and now they're wondering why I'm reacting so harshly...why I've got their precious prodigal son locked up being deprived of sleep and food and water (considering what I could be doing to him...), why I'm tearing this town apart looking for the others, why I'm punishing everyone.


 

And because they're stupid, they don't understand. As long as I look like I'm still trying to find out what happened, I'll have time. Time to find Stanley, to put him on trial, to have the appearance of swift justice. If I admit I can't find him or have a chance of finding him, then what I would like to do to this town - will be done to this town. (Or they'll take Jake and execute him and call it done, and I can't imagine how this town will react then...)


 

Four months of working to help this town and keep them off the ASA radar – and we end up here.


 

Stupid.


 

Edward

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tanaquific
Jul. 25th, 2009 05:55 pm (UTC)
Hee! You weren't kidding about Enraged!Beck, were you?

As always, I love the way you write Beck's perspective on Jake. Not that I think Beck's entirely right in his assessment *g* but I really think you've nailed the way Beck would see him.

Plus I also love how you describe how Beck sees his mission in Jericho - it really makes clear the motivations for his actions and his frustration.

Very nicely done! *waits for more*
shirleyann66
Jul. 29th, 2009 12:30 am (UTC)
Hee! You weren't kidding about Enraged!Beck, were you?

Hee - no! :) I don't know about you, but that moment when he's looking at Goetz in that tree, all I could think (as I shrunk away from the screen) was "That town is going to burn. I was both relieved and disappointed with the fallout. Relieved, because I love Beck (I know - shocking) and wanted him to be a good guy, but also disappointed because what he did was so..."you mean, that's it??"

Not that I think Beck's entirely right in his assessment *g* but I really think you've nailed the way Beck would see him.

Thanks! (I don't think he's entirely right, either). :D I'm glad you think I've nailed how Beck would see him, though. *happy hamster dance*

Plus I also love how you describe how Beck sees his mission in Jericho - it really makes clear the motivations for his actions and his frustration.

Thanks again - I'm glad it makes sense!

Very nicely done! *waits for more*

If I wrote sequentially, this would be a lot easier. I have about 45 letters in first draft form - but they're all scattered throughout the timeline. *headdesk* So, the next ones are coming - soon! :)




tanaquific
Jul. 29th, 2009 09:59 pm (UTC)
I was both relieved and disappointed with the fallout.

Well, one of the things I love about Beck is his self-control, so I assumed he got his temper somewhat under control on the journey back to Jericho. Also, we never saw what he did to New Bern....

If I wrote sequentially, this would be a lot easier.

*nods* I feel your pain. But the plotbunnies and muses take us where they want to go, don't they? Glad to hear there are so many letters in draft for and may be more published soon, though!
shirleyann66
Jul. 30th, 2009 02:03 pm (UTC)
Well, one of the things I love about Beck is his self-control,

Ooooh, yes. For me, it's one of those situations where you wonder just how far you can push him before he loses it completely - and then just how hot...I mean, scary...is he going to be when he does lose it...because there's a lot hiding under that cool exterior.

(I find that very sexy in my fictional men; I think I'd be too much of a coward in real life, though, to like it that much. LOL)

But the plotbunnies and muses take us where they want to go, don't they?

*sigh* I'll say...mind you, the ride is pretty awesome, though. :) If I remember correctly, the next four or five are all in first draft form, so it's really a matter of sitting down, finding the right notebook, and starting to refine them... ;)
ditte3
Jul. 25th, 2009 07:39 pm (UTC)
Good chapter.More AsAP please.
shirleyann66
Jul. 29th, 2009 12:30 am (UTC)
Hee! Thanks, and I'll see what I can do about getting more done soon. :)
falinemalfoy
Dec. 9th, 2009 03:42 am (UTC)
TOTAL Enraged!Beck is kinda scary!

I love how deep you put him in the situation and the very visceral way that he deals with the issue of the town's upheaval emotionally.

Very deep and very real. I loved it.
shirleyann66
Jan. 11th, 2010 08:26 pm (UTC)
TOTAL Enraged!Beck is kinda scary!

I think TOTAL Enraged!Beck is way, WAY scary... *whispers* and kinda hot...in a guilty, this-is-so-not-healthy kinda way... ;)

Very deep and very real. I loved it.

Thank you! This is one of my favourites. There are quite a few which are "mechanical" - they move the story/build the universe but don't really do much else. Then there are the letters like this one which (I hope) do more than that. :D

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